this past year has been a whirlwind. i've summited some of the highest highs, and i've trudged through some of the lowest lows. we started a business, tom changed jobs twice, i left a career that i built for the better part of a decade, we got a puppy, we moved, and all the while, i started to feel like i was taking my life back. i am inordinately blessed by the support system i have, and it would be a bold-face lie to say that they didn't have a huge part in helping me to get to this place of happiness and fulfillment. i'm truly in the best place that i've been in years. kudos to all of you for sticking it out with grumpylacey.
it's scary as hell to embark on a new journey just a half-step away from a new decade in life when one should sort of have it together. i'm still not sure that tom knows how he feels about it [engineers, amiright?]. it's also extremely liberating. i feel more filled up now, with fewer responsibilities and fewer opportunities for income [lolz...kind of...], than i have in a really long time. i think part of that has to do with needing a breather in general, but i also think it's because i finally have time to stop and smell the roses.
i was scrolling through insta-world earlier and saw a post that stuck with me. it was a quote by the late, great ernest hemingway. he said 'try to learn to breathe deeply, really to taste food when you eat, and when you sleep, really to sleep. try as much as possible to be wholly alive with all your might, and when you laugh, laugh like hell. and when you get angry, get good and angry. try to be alive. you will be dead soon enough.'
are you floored? i was.
ole ernie may have had more eloquent thoughts in his life, but he nailed something there. in a world that never stops, we tend to just bob through. what if we all took the time to actually focus? to appreciate? to stop thinking about what's next and when and why and just enjoy what is RIGHT. NOW? I think it's almost harder to sit in the now than it is to think about the next. I don't have an answer for why that is, but it does seem to be inherent human nature. And I want to change that for myself.
so in my now, i'm sitting in wheelhouse salon's new downtown shop. i'm looking at people of all backgrounds, colors [including hair!], genders, sizes, and ages. and i'm breathing in the life-giving scent of oribe's products. and i'm so thankful. i'm thankful to be doing what i love, and i'm thankful to be making new friends who inspire and encourage me and for the old friends who always build me up. i'm thankful for the absolute disaster of a backyard that I have and the dogs that drive me crazy in it. i'm thankful for a sarcastic husband who is every bit as together as i am not. i'm thankful for the sun that is shining and for the beautiful light that is spilling into this hella cool space. i'm thankful for a country that, even in it's sketchiest times, can come together to help those in dire need. i'm thankful for a world where i can live the life that i want to without judgement or shame. and i'm thankful for each of you.
human connection....that's what my now is about. i want to learn, to grow, to interact, to experience, to taste, to engage, to see, to LIVE. i don't want to look at that hemingway quote and wish my life looked liked that. i want to BE life. and i want it for you, too.
happy birthday to basic., and happy living to you.